| Monday, March 3rd, 2003 |
| 2:07 am |
I think I'm gonna be ok ... I think I might make it ... I think I can learn to breathe again ... I really hope I'm not wrong ... Current Mood:  awake |
| Friday, February 28th, 2003 |
| 11:39 pm |
Being in love makes this so much harder ... yet in a way so simple. It's crazy how love is ... sometimes it hurts ... but then there is that feeling of knowing you care so much about someone and it makes you all fuzzy inside. Knowing you would do anything for that person's happiness is a feeling you can't explain. I don't know ... I'm just thinking about someone special that everyone knows and I just wish I could hold him right now and tell him how much I love him ... I want to tell you how much I love you ... Current Mood:  melancholy |
| 5:31 am |
Someone give me an answer ... b/c it hurts to much to think any more. Current Mood: depressed |
| Thursday, February 27th, 2003 |
| 7:36 pm |
SO I just woke up ... after sleep 2 1/2 hours ... I'm wide awake and have no incentive to do anything. I think I will call Steve in a half an hour ... I need to paint ... but hey, oh well ... I'm in a pissy/shitty mood tonight so PEOPLE RESPOND TO MY ENTRIES. Now no one will even more! Woo hoo! Dawn, get home from school so we can chat!! I need some girl time again!!! Hehehe ... I'm gonna shut up ... Darkness ... Current Mood:  pissed off |
| Wednesday, February 26th, 2003 |
| 9:51 pm |
Someday we'll find it The rainbow connection The Lovers The Dreamers And Me ... -Kermit the Frog I keep hoping I'll find it ... I'm not sure what I'm looking for ... but it's out there ... until then I'll search ... perhaps I am searching for something non-existent ... perhaps I'm just imagining it ... but it keeps me going ... YOU keep me going ... I just wish my wings were strong enough to fly to you ... Current Mood: crushed |
| Tuesday, February 25th, 2003 |
| 11:07 pm |
SO I can't sleep ... way too much going on in my stupid head ... I really hate thinking ... it's too painful. SO my night is going to be long and lonely ... luckily Dawn in on line so I can talk to her and I'm not just sitting here staring @ a blank screen wishing I had someone to talk to ... Current Mood: lonely |
| Monday, February 24th, 2003 |
| 5:51 pm |
SO I almost decided to delete LJ ... but I guess I won't b/c I'd miss Dawn and I'd miss reading Joe's drunken entries that you really can't read ... so yea, I have spent my day going through all the shit in my room and cleaning all the bad memories out ... most likely I won't get them all, but I am trying ... too many photos and notes to keep. I am redecorating too and my mom asked if I was moving. I've done this before when I WAS gonna move out b/c I got KICKED out ... but then I had a billion boxes everywhere. So yea, not moving ... I wish I was ... just redecorating ... Well, I'm done boring everyone ... I guess I'll go ... HEY DAWN, I LOVE YOU GIRL! YOU'RE THE BEST! Darkness and Quiet Thoughts ... Current Mood:  content |
| Saturday, February 22nd, 2003 |
| 11:13 pm |
I'm here but not really ... I'm alive but really dead ... I'm smiling but it's not real ... I'm in a very numb mood right now ... my whole life is falling apart ... and I don't know what to do ... I'm lost ... and there is no one to comfort me ... I wish it would come back to me ... I had such a peace for a while ... but now it's gone and I don't know what to do ... Current Mood: lonely |
| 12:02 am |
I think I've fallen too far ... I think I've lost it all ... I think I've giving up ... I think I've finally died. Current Mood: depressed |
| Friday, February 21st, 2003 |
| 6:44 am |
I am definately half asleep ... I hate waking up ... especially when I'm sick. But oh well ... I'm off to the Abby tonight ... not sure who with seeings as I have no friends ... but I'll figure something out ... someone to play some rummie with. Off to school with me ... Darkness and Quiet thoughts ... Current Mood:  tired |
| Tuesday, February 18th, 2003 |
| 8:36 pm |
First off ... Mike, Joe, please listen to Steve and let him explain the little situation ... please ... I understand how you both feel, I truly do ... just let him explain everything b4 you decide to judge, ok? You are both great friends ... especially to Steve ... and I hope everything will be cool with us after all this ... Dawn ... please e-mail me (SallysNightmare7@aol.com) or IM me if you see me on (SallysNightmare7) ... I really need to talk to you and Steve said I could confide in you. So! To everyone else ... Steve just left and I BAWLED. I thought I'd be cool ... I knew it would be hard but I thought I'd be able to keep the tears away ... but I was wrong, and Ash wasn't with me this time to say "LET'S GO GET PIE!". But hey, I gotta be a big girl. I feel like shit right now ... I wanna throw up really bad. But it's just my nerves fucking with me. I keep shaking ... worry sux ... (NOT TO YOU STEVE). But any way, I think Steve and I got a lot accomplished in our relationship this trip. And I'll be up there March 29th! Yea! Can't wait. But I'm going to go to bed b/c I feel really sick. Darkness and Quiet thoughts to everyone ... Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: John Mayer |
| Sunday, February 16th, 2003 |
| 11:16 am |
We were so fucking plastered last night! Well, @ least I was. I don't remember shit! I looked @ my shirt this morning and I was like "When did I put this one?" So yea ... it was great. But I have a hangover from hell right now and I feel really sick. Blah ... but it was fun. Just so no one worries ... Steve and I are fine ... I know our journal entries have been like grrr but we're doing fine ... just having little arguments like every couple does. Any way ... I'm happy he's here ... Current Mood:  drunk |
| Monday, February 10th, 2003 |
| 6:47 pm |
Beauty is nothing more than a facad one hides behind. Concealing the truth, which is mangled and ugly ... and it frightens you ... Current Mood: melancholy |
| Saturday, February 8th, 2003 |
| 11:28 pm |
I'm talking to Steve right now and HE IS SO FUCKING DRUNK! He is just rambling on about his night ... it's so cute ... So I worked tonight ... it sucked like normal ... but hey, money! Darkness and Quiet Thoughts to everyone ... Current Mood: crappy |
| 12:13 am |
So I went out tonight ... I was gonna go see a movie ... but, what do ya know, NOTHING IS PLAYING! So we ended up @ the Abby like every Friday night. This VERY annoying girl was reading her stories and doing the voices for them ... I wanted to kill her. Supid ppl annoy me so much! Steve is @ Zebra Room tonight and I am sitting here @ home now ... and I am so tired. HE IS GOING TO BE HERE IN 6 DAYS!!!! I can't wait! Hell yeah ... I get to spend like 5 days with him! YEAH! So I'm a little excited. Hehehe ... EEE! Yea, I'm going to bed ... Darkness and quiet thoughts ... Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: Deadsy |
| Tuesday, February 4th, 2003 |
| 9:46 pm |
So my kitten is the cutest thing in the world! (Ash will agree with me on that!) I just picked her up and kissed her and she is just so sweet. And GUESS WHAT HER NAME IS!!!??? SALLY! Imagine that!? I don't like Nightmare Before Christmas or anything like that ... I just have the whole movie and sound track memorized! Kinda pathetic, but hey ... I'm obsessed. (eee) So my Engligh teacher is a bitch (yes, I am in highschool STILL but I'm 19 ... I'm just dumb and am on a 5 year plan). She is trying with all her might to fail every person in the class. She finally gave up on me b/c I'm to smart for her ... and I was a smart ass to her so she just ignores me now. But any way ... I'm tutoring my friend so that she DOESN'T fail and my teacher bitches @ me yesterday b/c I shouldn't help her b/c she isn't going to pass. I was the WTF??? I was so pissed ... but yeah ... she's a bitch and I gotta go to bed. Night everyone! Darkness and quiet thoughts to everyone ... Current Mood: tired |
| Monday, February 3rd, 2003 |
| 8:41 pm |
"Each form you see has its unseen twin image. If the form is transient, its essence is eternal. If you have known beauty in a face or wisdom in a word, Le this nourish you heart: What passes is not real." -Divan Shamsi Tabriz, XII Current Mood: satisfied |
| 5:59 pm |
Had this stuck in my head all day!!!
Ghouls and Gouls of every age Would you like to see something strange Come with us and you will see This our town of Halloween THIS IS HALLOWEEN THIS IS HALLOWEEN Pumpkins scream in the dead of night THIS IS HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY MAKE A SCENE Trick or Treat till the neighbors just die of fright This our town Everybody scream In our town of Halloween I AM THE ONE HIDING UNDER YOUR BED TEETH RAZOR SHARP AND EYES GLOWING RED I AM THE ONE HIDING UNDER YOUR STAIRS FINGERS LIKE SNAKES AND SPIDERS IN MY HAIR This is Halloween This is Halloween HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN (Didn't feel like finishing it) Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS |
| Sunday, February 2nd, 2003 |
| 7:47 am |
I'm eating Cheese Cake for breakfast!!! I'm gonna get fat, but oh well, I'll be good on Monday. Any way ... I can't get rid of this fucking migrain!I went to bed with it and it still hasn't gone away. Went to Dennys AGAIN last night with Ash and Sean ... I was kicking their asses in Rummy until that last hand ... then Sean won. DAMN. He always beats me! STEVE IS GOING TO BE HERE IN LESS THAN 2 WEEKS!!!! IT'S OFFICIAL!!!! I'M SO EXCITED!!!! EEE!!!! Have a great day everyone ... Dark thoughts and quiet dreams to all ... Current Mood: tired |
| Saturday, February 1st, 2003 |
| 12:46 am |
I'M TALKING TO STEVE!!! Yeah ... I'm in a pretty good mood now ... eee! So yea, I went to the Abby (a coffee house down town) and chilled there and got my ass kicked @ Rummy a couple times ... but I'm still the shit @ that game. But it was pretty fun ... I yelled @ my friend Tom for a while about being the dumbass he is being ... but it didn't do any good. He is too stubborn and just plain DUMB. Stupid people annoy me ... Everyone has been annoying me today. Fuck the world, man ... Any way ... yeah ... Steve's so great! I love him so much! But everyone already knows that! Hey Dawn ... I wanna talk to you about your school, okyday????? Good Night everyone!!! Current Mood: annoyed |
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